Sunday, April 3, 2016

Announcing New Youtube Channel



I finally started up my 2nd channel called,  Where The Gnomes Live,  for all my non-crochet related videos. I hope to see you there! Of course my original channel has not changed and I will continue to upload amigurumi tutorials.


Thanks for stopping by!

Monday, March 28, 2016

The Kayden Project




Welcome to the Kayden Project.

I started this project to help bring awareness to pregnancy and infant loss in memory of my niece's baby that she lost due to an ectopic pregnancy. The loss of a baby, no matter how early in the pregnancy that baby is, can cause the mother great heartache and pain. It is my hope that the Kayden Project will bring some comfort to mothers who are suffering, and give those in support of a mom who has lost her baby a better understanding of her grief. This project will include personal stories from you and photos of your crocheted Angel Bear. See the bottom of this page for more information about this project and how you can contribute your story and photo of your Angel bear to it.

Alicia's story:
On August 28th 2015, my niece had to have emergency surgery to remove the baby. This surgery actually saved her life but she developed a depression soon after and had a very hard time coping with the loss of her baby. She also felt feelings of guilt since she had to consent to the surgery. She knew that her baby was going to die even if she didn't have the surgery, but those feelings of guilt were still  there. Even though she had been pregnant for only a short time, she was in love with her baby and her mother's heart was completely broken with this loss. She grieved for many months after. Some people did not understand her grief. Some people went silent. Some people tried to help and said things they should not have said. On top of her grief that must have been extremely painful to deal with.

Don't try to fix her:
The best thing we can do for a mother who has lost her baby is just be there. Offer support and show compassion. Do not put a time limit on her grief. Be aware that mom could be dealing with depression as well. Depression is not to be taken lightly, depression can kill. Be gentle and kind.  Look into counseling services and take advantage of the help that's out there. Don't try to fix her. You can't fix her. Allow time to do the healing.  Don't say things like "there's a reason for everything" or "God needed an angel so he took your baby". These may seem like good things to say but they not helpful to a grieving mother in any way. If you don't know what to say, just say, "I'm so sorry this happened. I'm here for you if you need me".


A memory box and a name:
While my niece was dealing with this depression she reached out to the Alberta Health Services and they were very helpful to her and connected her with a pregnancy loss counselor. The counselor suggested she make a memory box and to also name her baby. Even though this did not take the pain away she did find comfort in doing things that honored her baby. She decided on the name Kayden Josiah and filled a memory box with cards and letters she received after Kayden's passing, special things from the family and things she had already bought for the day the baby should have arrived. She even crocheted a blanket in honor of her baby.


Baby is a member of this family:

In December of 2015 I wanted to give something special, something right from my heart, so I made the Angel Bear and sent it to Alicia for her memory box.
I wrote a letter that told her what an honor it was for me to be Kayden's great aunt! That will always be my special connection to this baby. Because of Kayden I became a great aunt for the first time. My parents became great grandparents for the first time too. These are all special things that we can hold onto and tell Alicia how much that means to us and that her baby mattered and is very much loved. I think one of the most important things for a mother to hear when she has had an early pregnancy loss is that her baby mattered.
 
The Angel Bear pattern:
The Angel Bear is a free pattern that also has a video tutorial with it. You will find all the pattern and video links you need for this project here.

Contribute to the project:
If you would like to contribute your own story to this project please send a photo of your crocheted bear and a story of how pregnancy or infant loss has affected you to kaydenproject@hotmail.com

Your story does not have to be long or detailed, it can be short and simple. You can say anything you want. You can say what helped get you through or what  hurt you the most. Tell us what people shouldn't  say to mothers who are grieving and what words brought you comfort. You can stay anonymous too! This is just a way for you to say in a few words how this loss affected you.
You can also contribute to this project if you made the bear for someone else or an organization. Please feel free to send your photo along with any information about an organization you work with or volunteer for.

There is a purpose:
The purpose of this project is to spread awareness. To allow people who are on the outside looking in, a glimpse into a mother's heart. To give people a better understanding that  pregnancy loss, no matter what stage it was in, can cause great feelings of loss and sadness and even depression. To let  mothers who have suffered a loss know that what they are feeling is completely normal. That this grief has no time limit. That their baby mattered and there is help out there for for those who need it.

Once I have your photo and story:

I will do my best to see that your photo and story is added within 3 weeks of submission. As this is just getting started, please check back for updates.

Helpful links:
Alberta Health Services
Ectopic Pregnancy Support with helpline
Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness

Thank you so much for visiting the Kayden Project. I hope you have found some comfort here.




Angel of my Tears
How do you love a person
who never got to be,
or try to envision a face
you never got to see?
How do you mourn the death of one
who never got to live.
When there's nothing to feel good about
and nothing to forgive?
I love you, my little baby,
my companion of the night.
Wandering through my lonely hours,
beautiful and bright.
What does it mean to die before
you ever were born,
to live the lovely night of life
and never see the dawn?
Ah! My little baby,
you lived like anyone!
Life's a burst of joy and pain.
And then like yours, it's done.
I love you, my little baby,
just as if you'd lived for years.
No more, no less, I think of you,
the Angel of my tears.
~Author Unknown.



Amigurumi Angel Bear


To read about the Kayden Project go here
                or watch the video introduction to the project.


All the parts for the Angel Bear have written patterns but each one also has a full video tutorial. Even those with little to no crochet experience will have the opportunity to make one.
If you have made an Angel Bear and would like to contribute to the Kayden Project, email a photo of your bear to kaydenproject@hotmail.com and write how pregnancy or infant loss has affected you. Once I have a few of your submissions I will update this page so check back for that update.


Written patterns:


Video tutorial playlist on youtube:



    Saturday, March 19, 2016

    Easter Egg Rocket With and Without the Egg


    Easter Egg Rocket,

    This rocket is part of a 3 pattern set that includes an Alien Slug and an Astronaut. The rocket was designed around a large plastic Easter Egg so that it could hold one astronaut inside. I know those larger eggs are hard to find so I've also included instructions to make the rocket ship with no egg, it is a solid body so you will not be able to open and close it.


     (size of egg  is given below with a photo)


    As always, I hope you enjoy the pattern!


    I do have more of the Easter Egg amigurumis, those are linked at the bottom of this page.
    Scroll down this page for the Rocket  pattern. 

    There is a print friendly button at the bottom of this pattern. If you would like to leave a donation please do so by using the donation button also located at the bottom of this pattern. Donations of any size are greatly appreciated and do help me to keep on

    Friday, March 18, 2016

    Astronaut Easter Egg Amigurumi


    Easter Egg Astronaut,

    I had so much fun making this
    set! This set includes patterns for the Alien Slug, a Rocket ship, and Astronaut.

    The Rocket and Astronaut were designed around plastic Easter eggs. The rocket will hold one astronaut inside! (size of egg  is given further below with a photo)
    This pattern page is for the Astronaut (scroll down to view), the Alien Slug pattern is here and the Rocket Ship is here 



    As always, I hope you enjoy the patterns!

    I do have more of the Easter Egg amigurumis, those are linked at the bottom of this page.
    Scroll down this page for the Astronaut.


    There is a print friendly button at the bottom of this pattern. If you would like to leave a donation please do so by using the donation button also located at the bottom of this pattern. Donations of any size are greatly appreciated and do help me to keep on

    Alien Slug Easter Egg Cozy


    Alien slug!

    This is actually part of a set that includes an Easter Egg Rocket and an Astronaut. Those 2 patterns will be added shortly and I'll be updating this page with those links.
    UPDATE: The Astronaut is now ready here
    UPDATE: Rocket Ship has been posted here
    You can stuff the alien with stuffing or add in a real egg or a plastic egg (size of egg is given further below with a photo)


    As always, I hope you enjoy the patterns!

    I do have more of the Easter Egg amigurumis, those are linked at the bottom of this page.
    Scroll down this page for the Astronaut and Alien patterns and the
    Rocket pattern is here.

    There is a print friendly button at the bottom of this pattern. If you would like to leave a donation please do so by using the donation button also located at the bottom of this pattern. Donations of any size are greatly appreciated and do help me to keep on

    Next Pattern Release


    Another fun set to add to the Easter Egg patterns. I have a bunch of them now! This set  wasn't planned, I just got inspired yesterday and at 2 in the morning I finished them with the patterns ready to go, I just have to proof read them. I wrote them late in the night so they need rested eyes to look them over. By the end of the day, the patterns will be yours.
    UPDATE: Alien Slug is now posted here
    2nd UPDATE: Astronaut is now posted here
    3rd UPDATE: Rocket Ship is now ready here

    My youngest son thinks these are "SO cool", lol I love that response. The astronaut fits inside the rocket which is always fun. And you can put a surprise or 2, the